THIS CHRISTMAS...

I know it's Christmas time, because as I am sitting here typing, I am listening to the rain outside, drinking my Starbucks Peppermint Mocha in a red holiday cup, looking at the stockings on the mantle, feeling the warmth from the fireplace, and looking at the lights on the Christmas tree and garland on the bannister.

This Christmas does feel different than any other before. This, I am sure, is for many reasons....

One reason being, this Christmas, I will be with my family on Christmas day, but for the first time (for me) it will be without my Grandma. It will be strange, uncomfortable, and maybe slightly less joyful. She always brought that special light and joy to our Christmas day.

Another reason would be that Hayden will be 13 months, and VERY much aware of Christmas (unlike last year when she was 5 weeks old and slept through Christmas morning). She already loves the Christmas tree, lights, and music. I can't wait to open gifts with her on Christmas morning!

The last reason would be our financial situation. I still don't have a job, am still getting unemployment, and am having to watch money pretty carefully. The holiday season is a difficult time of year when you are very financially strapped. Although, last night Josh and I were talking, and he brought up a very good point. When you don't have much money to spend, instead you spend the time enjoying the Christmas season with everyone you love. We aren't doing much shopping this year, as we decided to buy Disneyland passes for ourselves for Christmas this year. It's a big splurge, but will be well worth it for the next year. We got Hayden a few small things and one big gift, and are happy with that. We are happy with our life, no matter how complicated/broke/unsure things get.

So, this Christmas...

Instead of spending money, spend time.

This is what we will be doing!